i wanna be a part of a group of girls who support each other no matter what through any hardship like if one has a problem all the rest help to solve it
i have this habit where if i watch a show for long enough & take to a certain character i end up acting like them a little just in daily life. like how i hold myself or something & i catch myself doing things that that character would do and i’m like hey!! stop
when i first started running i couldn’t even make it to 4 minutes w/o stopping but i just ran for 30 that was so cool!!!
i’m so angry at myself and it feels like a fire spreading through me and it gets hotter and hotter i get more upset with myself everyday i’m doing what i can but i’m still a coward and that pisses me off. i’m too afraid and i can’t stop berating myself asking myself why the f i choose to live like this. i can’t pass the blame on to anyone else. i’m not sad anymore i’m furious it feels like i’m about to explode i keep gritting my teeth clenching my fists and thinking thoughts that feel like spikes being hammered into my stomach